I haven't really...

felt myself lately. My thoughts have been too vast, too familiar yet distance and I'm not sure what brought everything out but I feel as if I'm not reaching my fullest potential. I understand I don't have to, today, but I feel like I definitely could be doing more with my life and to set up everything I want out of life. It isn't that I don't know what I want to do, it's that I want to do 'too much.' And bc of that it's as if I don't know where to start. I almost feel ADD when it comes to certain paths. I'll be fully interested in one thing then next think you know I'm pulled in another direction and yet another. It's like I'm at a crossroad of sorts and I don't quite know which route to take but being still is not in my character. Yet, I do not want to be impulsive. Smh, either way, I have to move forward.

It's my birthday bitch...

No, seriously, it is. That's beside the point for this blog however. Today has had my thoughts a million places and I've been semi moody like a mofo today for reasons partially unbeknownst to me. I know on one hand that I've been irritated bc I almost feel absent in some people lives whom I'd like to remain present in, or should I say whom I thought I'd remain present in for great lengths of time and it's definitely not looking as if any of that has truth. Eh, I suppose certain things are only for a season but when years have passed, wouldn't one naturally assume that something isn't temporary.? I'm tipsy so of course in my mind I'm making perfect sense...whether it's coming across as so however is a completely different story and that is fine with me. It's crazy that I have this blog and can completely share my poetry[which frequently displays my mood at the time that I wrote it] but I cannot post my actual thoughts in their entirety. The last part of that sentence alone I think was too much of an overshare. Eh. Tipsyness. Peace.