I always want what I can't have

Shit’s thrown at me daily,
But I don’t want it til it’s maybe,
Maybe we could chill,
Maybe leave it where it’s at,
Either way it’s all gravy,
But fuck the maybes,
I always want what I can’t have,
Even though once offered,
When I want it,
It’s taken back,
Hmmm,
What the fuck is wrong with that picture?
Is it me, or does the image delude much quicker,
I’m always the one questioning where the fuck I went wrong,
That’s why I don’t open up easily,
Cuz my brain and heart take different turns,
One goes left, one goes straight,
Neither seems to go right,
My vision of the situation is never seen in daylight,
So it’s doomed at first sight,
Cuz it was never clear,
So now I must fathom driving in open air,
No traffic, no music, nothing other than my heart beat,
Can creep my earlobes cuz I need to hear myself think,
About why,
I always want what I can’t have,
Guess my sister was right,
I am a spoiled brat,
Dayum!
Never thought I’d admit to all that,
But admitting the issues' the first step,
There's no looking back.


[ 12/10/07 01:00 PM ]