Will I ever find love...

I think I'm looking in the wrong places,
being distracted by beautiful faces,
I know better than the steps I've most recently taken,
had a lapse in judgment when i thought we could possibly be above it,
the past,the drama,but I know better,
it's over,it's done with,yet still I knew better,
Why did I think your beauty could make me change?
that the chemistry we had could have made me behave,
because I wanted it.
I thought you did too,but with the situation the way it was,
i knew better,
I knew time would tell,
That time could heal,
Yet still your gaze had me in a spell,
But dayum.I know better.
I feel bad though,
but mainly for myself because I know this'll take me back,
back to where I've been trying my hardest not to look back.
I'm the princess of sex.
If you don't understand the name,let me explain,
My mother's maiden name is Koenig,
that's German for king,
that's how princess comes about for my mother is a queen.
My father's a sex addict,i feel his addiction thru my veins.
I try to maintain.
When i'm with someone,i don't play games.
I'm real with how it is,yet my feelings or emotions are concealed.
I have this block around me so don't think you have an affect.
Maybe that's why I can't find love,
maybe i cover myself from everyone without even realizing the effect,
I don't want to be hurt.
I don't like pain.
I'm more sensitive than I let off but not many have seen me in such way.
I want love.
I'm tired of keeping all my emotions to myself,pen and paper,
Problem is,
I keep looking for love in the wrong places.
When opportunities arise,
I get distracted by beautiful faces,
I'm the princess of sex.
But don't judge me by my name,
it isn't my rise to fame,
it's part of who i am,
but I'm trying to change.
Don't want love to come around and I miss the opportunity....again.


[10/11/08 10:06 PM]